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I made a pacifist character, Paxmar. I posted an introduction while I considered how to format this. I think what I’m going to do it put Paxmar’s journal in a text box, like so:

Paxmar wrote:

I decided that I am going to the Queen’s Colony as my father had told me he wished me to do when I came of age. He died in a bloody battle against the clockwork on Faydwer, trying to repossess what he originally believed was ours by birthright. All I have from him are letters that he wrote to me, care of my mother, while she stayed safe in Baubbleshire. The first letters were all about justice and honor and victory. Later letters speak of blood and lost friends and hardship and dying dreams. In the end, he wrote of doubts and dismay. He stopped speaking of the clockworks as scrap metal with bad electrics and started describing them as real beings, with thoughts and feelings of their own.

When we received the letter from Waynil Garwater saying my father had been “lost”, as if one day they might suddenly find him, it was as if someone turned a light out in my mother’s eyes. She never seemed to care about much after that, not village life nor the household, not even me. She died a few years later – they said it was ‘fluenza that took her out but I still think it was a broken heart.

I got a bit of silver from the Gnomish Orphan’s Fund, along with an apology for the amount but things were tight and there were a lot of orphans. It was enough that I could rent a small room and finish my schooling. I decided very early that I wouldn’t be a part of this constant bloodshed that seems to have inundated our lives. Kill the badgers, slay the goblins, stomp on the spiders, stop the clockworks. It’s not like it’s a question of survival any more. I know I can’t change the world but I can be responsible for following my own moral compass and I think I’ve already seen enough death to last me a lifetime.

However, that isn’t to say that I won’t support my village nor that I’ve turned against Queen Antonia. Which is why I’ll report for duty at the Queen’s Colony and ask them if I can help in my own way, without causing harm to others. I have two good feet and two good hands, I’m quick to learn and I am not afraid of a little hard work. Why, I bet they might even be glad for someone who isn’t looking to be a hero and is happy just to keep things smoothed over.

Wish me luck.

I decided from the start that I was going to have to maximise the number of newbie zones I could get to, so I started Paxmar as a Qeynosian Gnome so that she would get access to the Isle of Refuge. I remembered a few starter quests on the island which I could do without killing things but it turned out that all of them were part of a chain – she was stuck. I did Ebik’s Missing Parts and ran around getting the exploration experience.

That gained me my first few deaths and I realised that I was going to have to be a lot more careful – with limited options for experience, I really couldn’t afford to waste it working off debt. I went ahead and took the boat to Baubbleshire and logged her off for the night at level five.

Paxmar wrote:

I had the best of intentions, really I did. The first thing they asked me to do was to learn the art of combat. I told myself that it would, of course, be important to defend myself but I really wasn’t very comfortable with it.

I swung at my sparring partner, clearly going to miss by a mile, but then he blocked my arm and shoved at me and I swung back instinctively and from there it was frighteningly easy. He stepped back and told me well done. I was shaking.

I ran to the beach in tears. Once I composed myself I went back and said that I was happy to support Qeynos and Antonia but I would not under any circumstances fight or hurt another person. Everyone ignored me. I asked what I could do to help and got shrugs in return. I stumbled away, unwilling to let any of them see me cry again.

As I was walking along, berating myself for being a failure, I met another gnome, Ebik Wobblecog. He was rather self-centered, completely ignoring the state I was in but to be honest, it was a bit of a relief. He was trying to find parts from some doohicky which I offered to help him locate. It gave me a chance to explore the island and in the end, the look on his face when I presented him with the Size 7 Clunker that he thought was lost forever, well, it was worth it.

That was when I made up my mind that there was no reason to stay. I felt bad but surely in Qeynos there would be some way to help that wouldn’t involve hurting other people!

Next: Paxmar Smells a Rat


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